juke box: love is everything- k.d. lang

it is more than strange, that two months have passed of being out on my own. from my big ambition vying for the shanghai attachment to finding myself at HBO, it's like starting from scratch in a less-than comfortable way.

compared to the stuff i get to do in school, i guess it's really different being an intern. i'm extemely fortunate to have nice supervisors who pretty much aren't vocal about my sheer show of confidence that i could only have pulled off in school, my cockiness seemingly the only method i know of how to survive in an almost dog-eat-dog course. the truth is that being genuinely nice is still the best way to get around in the real world.

at times i wish that i'm back in school, thinking that i'm learning the hard way and hence i'm invincible in my own right. being humbled and knowing my place is hardly giving a boost to the ego i've grown accustomed to having. right now though, i've realised that i want the experience i'm not going to get at school. i want the challenge of not having friends by my side and being on my own, even though it's slowly becoming tougher. there, the oh-so-great me can't handle loneliness.

as for tien chen, perhaps i found him because i had never known what i was looking for. you just kind of hop on when you have a good feeling and hope for the best.

love is so much more than kisses and spending nights together. friendship is more than simply being a listening ear, and that's love too.

I blogged @ 1:42 PM